Event-event pa din

Because I am a talented human being, hahaha!, my classmates asked a favor from me. They requested me to be one of the photographers in their event. I couldn’t say no, especially when they knew I have a DSLR.

Well, a DSLR is a DSLR. But if you don’t know how to manipulate and you don’t have any BASIC skills or idea of  how to use a camera like that, well… good luck to you. HAHAHA.

The event went well. Though there was a technical problem because the only AVP that was presented has static noise. The sound system didn’t cooperate to the event. Sayang. Well, that’s one problem encountered.

Though I am just an insignificant photogrpaher and videographer of the event, I enjoyed it. That much. Here’s one of the proofs:

Ganito maging masaya. Kita gilagid ko. HAHAHAHAHA. Panira si Rei, nilagyan niya ako ng sungay. Ang ganda ng background ko eh noh? Masaya rin sila. I know my smile is contagious.

Note: Please lang, wag mo ng pindutin para lumaki yung pic, dahil makikita mong detelyado yung muka ko. Tapos may mga di pa kanais-nais na elements na dapat hindi naman makita. Hayaan mong ganyan na lang. Makita mo pa yung tinga ko… HAHAHA. Hindi ako nagbibiro.

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Actually, nakakatuwa yung mga alumni. Merong mukhang loner, meron naman, parang nagusap talaga na pupunta sila sa event. Halos karamihan ay mga bagong graduate lang. Pero marami naman ang matatagal na ang batch nila.

Nakakatuwa lang yung mga taong, pumunta doon para marelive nila yung feeling. May narinig nga akong isang alumnus na sabi, “Na-miss ko ‘to,” alam mo yun?

Kahit hindi ganun kagarbo yung handa at pagkain, nagawa nilang pumunta. May salu-salo. Maingay. Basta.

Naexcite tuloy akong grumaduate…

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Masaya kayang mag-organize ng isang event. Lalo na kung lahat ng tao nakikipagcooperate, yung technicals din umaayon… Alam mo yun??

Sana lang talaga maging prepared kami next week.

Get Down to Brass Tacks.

It is overwhelming to realize that I am really decided to continue my blogging habit in this blogsite. Yey me!

I missed being loud in cyberworld. I’ve been pretty loud in the real world, and it’s not getting any better there. I missed my [cyber]world and I missed the guys and gals I’ve been with. Those blogs that I read through good times and bad times? Those blogs that I can relate to and force myself to relate to, hahahaha!… I am missing the feeling and still hoping that it’s not yet gone.

So, back to my dashboard, I am composing an entry to relive the emotions when I was writing back then. When I’m typing this entry, I’m somewhat familiarizing myself—again— to be liberated. Those times when I write my experiences without feeling any guilt, I really miss those times. And also, I miss being trying hard when it comes to compose an entry in English. Hahahaha. My english is not decent  enough to compose a strong thought. Well, once in a while, I will be doing my best-est to compose english entries. And Gracey knows how open I am in correcting my grammar construction.

And  little by little, I am finding my feet. I can now tell which are things I hated or the things I don’t want to do—ever— and the things I want to do and want to be a habit. It may be vague..

And I am going to be serious about this blogging thingy. ^^,

Nangingiti na lang ako:)

In fairness, ha! Namiss ko tong blog ko! Hahahaha!

Hindi sa hindi na ako nagbablog, ‘no? Pero may isa pa kasi akong blog. It’s really nice to read my previous posts, and remind me of how I see things in life differently. Hindi tulad ngayon… Nag-e-emote na naman ako sa buhay. Hahahahaha.

Ayokong bahiran ng masalimuot na entry ang blog na ito… Seriously.

Kasi masalimuot ang pinagdadanan ko ngayon habang tumatanda. Dumadaan na ako sa pulitika ng buhay.

Natutuwa talaga akong maabutan ang blog kong ito. Akala ko kasi dati, hindi ko na siya magagalaw eh… Mali pala ako ^^,

Hangga’t maari, hindi pala dapat ako nagpapaalam sa isang bagay na makikita ko pa naman at yung mga bagay na hindi ko pa napapagpasyahang iwanan ng panghabang-buhay… Panandalian lang. ^^.

I hope you can keep up. So random. :)

Kahit nagkaroon ng sembreak, naging busy pa rin kahit papano.

I’ve learned something. And more realizations na naman.

Kumatok ako sa pintuan ng networking line. Pinatuloy naman ako kaya lang umalis ako agad. Una, wala pa kasi akong capital at hindi ko maafford yung mga product packages nila. Pangalawa, I think I’m gonna work on first yung talent ko sa pagiging PR. )

Alam mo, dati kasi mahilig akong magbenta benta ng kung anu-ano. Naimpluwensyahan kasi ako ng lola Fanny ko. Mahilig din kasi siyang magbenta. Ang kulit nga ng storya ng buhay non. Promise ko sa sarili ko magfi-feature ako ng mga kamag-anak ko na worth featuring sa aking blog ) meh ganon? as if namang nagoonline sila para basahin ang aking blog. Takot ko lang no. Lalo na nung kasagsagan na nasa blogspot pa ako, naku! Nahuli ako ng tita ko na gumagawa ng blog ko eh. Eto namang tita ko hindi nagsasalita, nagbabasa na pala siya ng entries ko. Tapos one time, tinawagan niya yung kapatid niya, na isa ko pang tita, pinagoonline para lang bisitahin yung blog ko, nakakaiyak daw. Tapos pinamalita pa sa tatay ko hanggang sa nakarating sa nanay ko. Siyeeeet! Tapos dali-dali kong binuksan yung blog kong yun at pinrivate muna pansamantala. XD tapos tinamad na ako. Ending: eto ngayon ako sa wordpress, minsan lang merong entry lalo na kapag maganda ang timpla ng mood.

Anyways, back to what I was talking,  ayun. Nakakatuwa lang sa networking, meron akong nakikitang strategies. Tapos dinidiscuss nila yung feasibility studies ng company. Ewan, pero kasi,  merong bumubulong sa akin na hindi pa ngayon. Nafrustrate tuloy ako. Pero ano pa bang magagawa ko? Kasi wala naman talaga akong magagawa. Unang-una, ayokong mangutang, dahil alam kong hindi ko kayang bayaran. Alangan namang pangakuan ko silang babayaran ko sila, eh alam ko sa sarili kong hindi ako sure sa mga ginagawa ko, alam mo yun? Hindi naman yung pagbibilhan ko yung mananagot sa pagbabayad ko eh, ako yun di ba? Ako yung hahantingin nila, hindi yung kumpanyang sasalihan ko.

Pangalawa, wala akong mabebenta. Sabi kasi ng iba, ibenta na lang daw yung mga bagay na wala namang balik like, mp3, ipod… yung luho lang sa buhay mo? Eh wala naman akong sempon dahil hindi naman akin yung ginagamit ko. Alangan namang ibenta ko yun? At tsaka hindi talaga ako maluhong tao. Yung laptop nga na dalawang taon kong hinintay, hinintay ko talaga. Hanggang sa dumating dahil ngumangawa na ako dahil hindi ko na kayang mahuli sa biyahe. Wala akong mp3, wala akong iPod. Wala akong… basta hindi ako maluho. At hindi ako nagyayabang ng gamit na hindi ko naman pinagpaguran. Madalas nga, kapag nakita nila akong may dalang gadget, like for sample, digicam, eh hindi naman saken yun, padala lang yun ng papa ko sa mama ko. Sinabi nila ang yaman ko daw, sabi ko, hindi nga sabi ako yung mayaman, yung tatay ko tsaka yung nanay ko. Nakikishare lang ako sa benefit ng pagiging hardworking nila. Mahirap bang intindihin yun?

Pangatlo, nagopen ako ng business, yung pangbahay lang, kaya lang hindi ko na maasikaso ngayon kasi nga busy akong tao. Busy pero hindi kumikita. Busy in a term na maraming ginagawa sa buhay. Busy as in kulang sa time management.

In short, isa talaga akong mahirap na nilalang. Hindi ako maluho, hindi ako palahingi. Kuripot pa ako. Kapag may gusto akong bilhin na hindi ko naman kayang bilhin, naghahangad ako sa sarili ko na balang araw, makakaya ko rin yung bilhin, pero alam kong hindi pa ngayon… hindi pa ngayon… pero malapit na.

Tapos nun, nagapply ako sa isang company na nagbebenta ng technos and gizmos. Interview pa lang, bagsak na ako. Ichacharge ko na lang sa experience. Ganon ba talaga mga HR, matataray? O sadyang nakakaasar lang kasi nakikita nila kahinaan mo lalo na kapag kabado ka? May pagkaintrovert kasi ako sa umpisa, pero kapag naging familiar na ako sa takbo ng sistema, ha, tignan ko lang. Charge ko na nga lang sa experience yung nakakahiyang pangyayari na yun. XD Isa pa, paghahandaan ko na yung OJT this summer. Kailangan wala akong bagsak ngayong sem, at kailangan matataas.

Nakakahiya kaya yung mga grades ko nitong nakaraang sem. Potek, hahalik na sa tres yung GWA ko dahil inulan ng 3 yung record ko. Tapos yung 3 subjects na line of 2 dun pa sa bandang 250 at 275 humilera, hindi man lang ginawang 225. Kundi ba naman tanga? Ang sipag kasing mag-aral at magtake down notes. Totoo nga na nakakainggit yung mga kaibigan ko. Sa aming magbabarkada yung akin lang talaga yung nakakahiya. Nasa kasagsagan ako ng pagkawala ng ganang mag-aral, pero narealize ko, anong mangyayare saken kung mas lalo akong mawalan ng ganang mag-aral? Parang pinatunayan ko lang sa kanila: sa parents ko, sa former teachers ko na napilitan lang akong ipasa kasi may hatak ako sa majors lalo na sa math nung highschool, sa mga competitors ko na iniismall ko lang dati dahil alam kong sipag lang ang meron sila [no offense meant, pero ganon ako kapalalo nung highschool ako], sa mga kaibigan ko na inaasar ko dahil napunta sila sa course nila na hindi nila gusto, sa mga kakilala ko na parang isa ako sa mga taong inaasahan nilang magbabago ng mundo—JOKE! OA!? HAHAHAHAHA… di ba? di ba? ano na lang ang papatunayan ko sa sarili ko? Na tamad talaga akong tao at sa kangkungan na lang pupulutin? Mukhang hindi pa nga ako mapupulot sa kangkungan nito dahil kahit sa kangkungan marami akong kakumpetensya. )

Kaya napagdesisyunan kong ienhance ang mga skills ko, balikan ang mga lectures—halos lahat ng lectures— na hindi ko naintindihan lalo na ang academic majors ko na math: differential calculus at diferrential equations, plus yung electronics pa, yung circuits ok pa eh, tapos dagdag ko na rin yung java[from scratch pa rin talaga ako], tapos sinisingit ko yung mga self tutorials ko sa photoshop. dreamweaver, sonyvegas pro, adobe premiere. Kasi balita ko malaki raw magpasweldo ang adobe, tsaka maraming benefits. Hinahalukay ko rin kasi sa baul—hindi, sa libingan— yung skills ko sa pagdodrawing at yung galing ko sa arts at art appreciation.

Pero ang alam ko, hindi natanggal ang skills ko sa art appreciation kasi panay ang nood ko ng movies. Kaya kong icriticize ang movie ng hindi ako bias. tapos nagddl pa ako sa kasalukuyan ng mga latest torrents. Nakakatuwa nga eh, dami ko ng napanood tapos yung iba, hindi naipalabas dito sa pinas. Pero feeling ko meron ng available nun sa quiapo, eh kuripot nga ako di ba? mas gugustuhin ko pang magdl kesa bumili ng cd na halagang 50 pesos. Nanghinayang eh noh? eh may resources naman ako ah, why not use it? kahit sabihin pa nilang its gonna take a loooooong time, sulit naman. kasi malinaw na yung dnl mo, meron pang maayos na sub.

kaya lang hindi ko masyadong maenjoy ngayon ang panonood ng movies kasi nagsimula na naman ang pasukan. pero pinramis ko talaga sa sarili ko na imamaximize ko yung gamit ng laughtough ko sana lang hindi ako mahadlangan.

 

YES, I FLUNKED but that doesn’t mean it’s gonna be the end of my career.

I can’t access my account online to see what’s my grade in circuits 1. one of my classmates posted that there’s already a new input grade in the SIS, circuits 1. it’s been irritating because i can’t access on the server. it’s been redirecting me in the same page when i hit the enter button, its like a loop. it’s getting into my nerves.

so i buzzed one of my classmates in y!messenger then asked him a favor if he could access my account online. he was, i don’t know, delighted to do it. im really worried at first what’s it going to be and also doubtful because the last time i let my friend checked it for me, i also failed in one of my previous academic majors. it’s like, this is one the subjects im really worried about flunking. fuck the rest, this is one of my majors and i know that i’m walking two heights… it’s either 3 or 5.

i dunno, i really don’t know why i am expecting something relieving, when there’s nothing to expect but failing. you know why? because i know my shortcomings. most of the time, i come late because it was one of my morning class. i didn’t pass five out of 15 experiments write-ups. i failed almost exams including finals. and these are the three factors that totally affected my grades—because he printed screen my account and i saw… i failed. with all frowning and hopeless feelings. all the horses in my chest and the beat of the loudest bass you’ll ever hear… it’s all in my ears, playing.same thing that goes in my mind like: what will my father feel if he knew? what am i gonna do in the summer coz for sure, i’m taking its prerequisites, and GOD forbid it’s not gonna be many and i hoped its just circuits 2 because this summer we will have our ojts!. a.. and… and what’s gonna be next? im doomed.

what now? i have agreed to my father that i won’t fail any subjects this sem until i got my diploma. but, again, i failed him. it’s fine with me, but not with them. i hate it when they are seeing my failure, they see me failing. im ashamed, but im too tired to feel ashamed because of these things: pressure, stress, frustrations, and factors that really distract me doing things i thought i love doing.

it feels normal—i mean, to fail. but my mother said things like what ifs. she said that it’s gonna be a negative impression for me if i applied for a job. she’s like nagging me for being lazy and not having an interest to do things in what im doing, well in case, she got a point. no, not a point, a PERIOD.

i remember the thing my trainer asked me,  if i am smart. I answered her yes, I WAS. but things throw me out of focus. then she said no, I AM focused, but!— not in what I know I can do but for the insecurities im living in. she said to change my perspective. that  i know a lot of perspective but i chose to linger on the negative side, change it—-ASAP. how can I??? if im living in a world that has insecurities and a machine hands that pulls down everything, even my confidence? when there are people who tries to dip your whole head on your faults and never try to notice the things you have done right. it’s like, for them, you did nothing right.

although, there are many reasons why they feel that way if they knew that i failed. it’s the expenses and the effort to survive. but who cares? i mean, it’s not the effort that their bosses are paying here, its their time. i dunno why stamped names are very important in this world, when there are successful i know,  people, who were not finished in their schooling. it’s slavery—- i mean, the school thing. there, they’re not practicing what’s it going to be in the real world. all but theoretical.

im starting to feel like im uninterested in this routine. i failed, my friends passed and tell you what, they will feel sorry for you. but you’ll going to say to them that stop feeling sorry for you coz you’re just irritated because their sorry won’t help any good. and when they stop feeling sorry for you, you’ll get irritated also because you want them to sympathize with you. and im gonna be LOLed you for that. youre just a crazy ass who seeks attention and make others’ time wasted.  why dont let oursleves to move on and continue and make sure this time that it’s gonna be all right, alright?

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that’s all for now. i dont feel like crying tonight, but i know i am near crying. im just tired and all.

kapa.

sinindihan ko ang kandilang nababad sa tubig. kumislap ngunit hindi umapoy. tinuyot ng tubig ang mitsang tanging daan lang para magkaron ng liwanag.

tangan ko ang posporong tanging magbibigay sa akin ng konting pag-asa. natatakot akong sindihan dahil hindi pa ako handang maubos ito. hindi pa ako handang kumapa sa dilim ng pangmahabang panahon. samantalang hindi pa ako abala sa mga bagay-bagay, tiniyak ko munang wala akong natatapakan ni nasasagi man sa aking dinaraanan. madilim, oo, ngunit alam kong meron akong kasama—gabay, hanggang sa maalis ang piring sa aking mga mata. piring ba ito o pinaniniwala ko lang ang sarili ko? kasama…

nasan ka na? tila ba naubusan na ako ng pag-asa sa iyong pagdating. ngunit umaasa pa rin sa binitiwan mong pangako na dulot ay pagkalaya ko sa kadilimang bumabalot sa aking pagkatao—sa aking gunita, kabuuan at paraan. hindi ka ba magtatagal sa pupuntahan mo? hanggang kailan mo ako paghihintayin? Naging tapat naman ako sa iyo bago mo ako talikuran at gawing dahilan ang paglisan mo. ganon na ba ako kahalata? na tila nasasalamin mo ang aking mga iniisip sa aking mga ikinikilos? wala ba akong karapatan na magkaron ng sariling kapamahalaan sa aking pansariling kaligayahan? tila inalisan mo ako ng gayun. pero kahit ano pa man, maghihintay ako… maghihintay kahit hanggang panawan na ng hininga at tuluyang humimlay sa kailaliman ng lupa. maghihintay ang ‘sang tulad ko sa pagdating mo kahit ano pa man ang mangyari. dahil alam ko naman na ang paghihintay ko ay magiging sapat sa pagpapalaya mo sa aking sarili. kahit ang paghihintay na ito ay maglilimita sa mga bagay na nais kong gawin.ngunit, papaano ako makagagawa ng mga bagay hangga’t wala ka pa? di ba isa itong kalokohan? tila hindi nagkakaisa ang ating mga plano. tila hindi mo ibig na makipagugnayan ako sayo. ano ang dahilan? kung malalaman ko man, magiging sapat ba ito upang ako’y kumbinsihin? paniwalain na hindi mo talaga ako gustong makapiling? sa palagay ko nama’y oo ang magiging kasagutan dahil hindi naman ako maghihintay sayo ng ganito katagal upang pahirapan ang kalooban kong paniwalaan ka.nagsimula nang pumanaw ang mga araw, nagpaikot-ikot ang oras, at nawawalan ng gana ang enerhiyang bumubuhay sa nalalantang bulaklak.

sa paghihintay sayo ay tila panghabambuhay, kaya kailangan ko nang maglakad. kailangan ko nang simulan ang paglalakbay na ito at ako’y umaasa na makakasalubong kita sa daraanan ko.

HW?!

Hindi yan homework! hahaha…

Usong-uso na yan ngayon. Lalo na sa mga college students na matatapos na ang sem dahil, ahem, ayan na naman ang deadlines, exam at ang katakot-takot na requirements at passing grades sa looking-minor-feeling-major mong subject.

Heto na naman ako, nagra-rush. Mukhang hindi na matatanggal sa sistema ko ang pagccram. Tsk. World, what have you done to me?! Answer!

kedami-dami naming ginagawa, at salamat naman sa Dios, kahit papano, nakakaraos pa rin ako sa araw-araw… may baon pa naman akong nabibigay sa mga anak ko.. chos!

kidding aside, grabe ah. daming requirement ng teacher namin sa isang minor subject tapos ang bottomline is— dun kami sa ini-endorse niyang school supply house para naman kumita siya kahit papano… Feeling ko talaga, siya may ari nun. Ayaw lang niyang magsalita. Hmpf. Ako nahihirapan sa kanya. Bakit hindi na lang niya irecord ang mga grades namin? Tutal naman, yun lang naman ang cocompute-in niya eh. Meron pa ba? Kung sana, kino-compute niya yung mga ginagastos namin, at yung mga gagastusin pagdating pa lang sa subject niya, eh. Ay, oo nga pala, nakainventory na yun. All he needs to do is to check it out by the end of the sem… kung magkano kinita niya… Kairita.

May nakaabang pa sa akin na reviewer na sabi, “Hoy, kamusta naman, pina-photocopy mo ako, tapos hindi mo ako babasahin? Ano ka, nagsasayang lang ng pampa-photocopy? Para ano? Para masabing nag-aaral ka? G*%@!!! Umayos ka nga, basahin mo na ako! Bilis!!!!”. Nakikipag-away siya saken[yung reviewer]? Hah! Bahala siya sa buhay niya! Ano siya?! Umayos-ayos siya ah… Kung makautos, kala mo kung sino! XD But seriously, I don’t want to end up being a loser. So I really have to study.

Konti lang naman eh. Economics 1, Java, Statistics at Circuits 1 lang naman. Kayang-kaya ko yan! Sa awa’t tulong Niya. Sabi nga ng kapatid ko, kailangan ko lang magtiwala, kapag pumasa, eh di kaloob! Kapag bumagsak, eh di hindi kaloob!

Sabi ko naman, eh panong hindi papasa, eh hindi naman nag-aral! Kung mag-aaral ka, malamang papasa ka… Ipagkakaloob yun… Kaya lang, kung mag-aaral ka pero pinagpapalit mo sa walang kabuluhang bagay ang tungkulin, hindi ibibigay yun sayo… for sure. Sana alam ko kung anong gagawin ko. (!!

Sooooo….? Uh… That’s all for now. Kailangan ko pang magrebyu.

Oh, kayo? Ano pang hinihintay niyo? Sakay na!!! LOL… TSE. Magreview na rin kayo kung meron kayong irereview… Magmuni-muni lang kahit saglit, para magkaron ng kaliwanagan sa kung ano ang mga madidilim. Magkaron ng kalinawan sa kung anong malabo. At syempre, magkaron ng kaunawaan sa kung ano ang hindi maintindihan. All you need to have is a peace of mind in a quiet place… Umalis ka muna sa magulo mong utak at sa magulo mong mundo. Hanap ka muna ng lugar kung saan wala kang idea kung ano yun that will bring you peace—

Neneng: Ati, ati… pwidi pu ba sa seminteryo?

º(Θ(Ÿ)Θ)º: Say whuut?? Hindi ko naman sinabing lugar kung saan wala ka ng maramdaman. Ate, ako ba pinaglololoko mo?

Neneng: Eh sabe mo kwayit? Kwayit naman dun ah!

º(Θ(Ÿ)Θ)º: Gusto mong maging kwayit?— for life? JOKE!!!

Neneng: ..owkay!

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GOD bless y’all

eto po si Leeyo Panda na nagsasabi, Hindi hawak ng libro ang iyong kapalaran… Gabay lamang sila na nakatengga sa iyong tahanan. Mag-aral ka, at huwag mong sisihin ang iyong paaralan, dahil madalas sa hindi, katamaran ang nagdudulot ng iyong kapahamakan.

Magandang gabi sa inyo

PS___ I almost forgot… Welcome nga pala sa tinatawag nilang HELL WEEK

Time has changed me, and the contributing factors too. Hell, yeah, I’m blaming them!

As time goes by, there are things that came to you. Sometimes it’s new. Sometimes it’s better. Sometimes it’s destructive. Sometimes it’s the thing we need to hear just to stop our illusions. [Magkukwento na lang ako ulit ng past )]

When I was in grade school, I thought the world is just a Lego where Someone’s managing. I’m too naive back then. I didn’t know that mathematics is hard for my classmates. I didn’t know what crush is. I didn’t even know what sex is! I didn’t even know how to ride a bike. I didn’t even know that changing my given name during exams will cause me trouble. I didn’t even know calling your friend’s mom “mom” makes them jealous. I didn’t even know that I have younger siblings, thinking that she’s just a year behind me, hahaha. I didn’t know that lying is a crime. I didn’t even know that having a crush on older man makes me weird. I didn’t even know that kissing will bring you unknown senses. I didn’t even know that making friends is just easy, but trusting them was not…

I studied in all-girls catholic school in my first three years in elementary. Maybe that’s where I got my identity crisis. I’m not ordinary and also not an extra ordinary— I’m somewhere in between. I still know people who’d been my classmates before and, it’s weird for me, I still recognize their faces. Usually, I can’t remember their names. Ha-ha-ha. But for sure, I can remember their faces. Especially my first ever same-sex crush. Weird, eh? Well, I blame it to the environment.

My parents decided to transfer in another place and I continued my studies in Cavite. And in that time, I didn’t know that being a Manila girl has an advantage. In that time, I learned to mingle. I learned to boast. I learned to cry. I learned to talk back, especially when I know I was right—and most of the time I was right. I learned to apologize. I learned to appreciate. I learned to care. I learned to… develop. I think that’s the time where I was acquiring all my traits. I’m not that aware But if I was, I wished I did better.

After a year, they[my parents] decided to go back again to our place in Pasig. This time, I went in public school. I became notorious in my own world. I started to love anime. I started to believe that only those wrong and weak have to apologize or say sorry. I started to feel—- different. Bringing my reputation all along from Cavite, I’ve become the tomboy they[my new classmates] used to know until I reached graduating level. But regardless of what I was acting, I was one of the pure competitors of the Elite [these are the students who were reigning in the honorary spotlight before we, John Patrick Esporlas (my classmate when I was in kindergarten) came to the school, and take note: they're not just giving away their spotlight because of what their parents invested for it. You know... Parents... They want the best for their child. For the sake of the popularity and achievements and for reference during high school interviews ]. But I won’t give up without any fight. So, me, without even making an effort to go to the top (because I was lazy to pass projects and requirements, and if I do pass the requirements, it’s effortless)… I know, somewhere, in someway, that they were totally pissed off because an easy-go-lucky me has crossed their paths. And that happened halfway of the school year. They were threatened by me… After That, that was the time I’ve been known to be one of the girls well in math. I’d been the photojourn of the school, it’s just that, nanghihinayang ako because I didn’t know that photography would be one of my interest/hobby as of now. If I have been better since my elementary days, I would have been  a good photographer now , yahthink? Hahaha. I was in the chess club. and oh! I forgot, there were so many ups and downs even during my elementary life… Hahaha… I was the president of Economics club. I ran for Treasurer in my senior years in elementary but lost to a teacher’s daughter, who bought the entire 4th grader votes and gave a plus grade for a bribe. Poor panda… She didn’t even experience how to be in supreme student council even in elementary. And then… I graduated by being a 2nd honorable mention. Whew. Thank goodness!!!

But, wait! There’s more… but that’s all for now, and that story will be the continuation story. Stay tuned for more info, who knows if you’re gonna be the next America’s favorite dancer.

I don’t have ugly friends.

People… They tend to find same species as them. Same wavelength and frequency like them. Most of the time, they found themselves in others so they make friends with them.

Yesterday, I was in the event of our org. But before I went there, on my way, I crossed path with one of my orgmates. And she’s with the speaker and at the same time the president of our org. They’d seen me with my friends. I told them I will go after I was done with my lunch-slash-snack.

After that, I went to the venue. It started already, the event. Then after a little while, she sat beside me. I told her if she saw his former classmates’ new girlfriend [I'm talking about my friend]. I was not prepared for her answer: “Oo, ang panget.” Plain, boring and straight-forward and irritating. I was waiting for a reply, not a comment.

I’m not gonna blame her if she’s looking only in the facial aspect of person. She’s talking about my friend here. I dunno, I felt I was insulted.

I’m not gonna blame her if she’s looking in the way she’s dressing.

I’m not gonna blame her if she’s been disappointed because her former classmate, and her “crush”, has a girl, and it’s not her.

I’m not gonna blame her if she looked it like that.

I’m not gonna blame her…

I’m not gonna blame her…

Why?

Because she’s my sister—-in faith. I’m not in the right place to judge someone who judged someone It will only complicate things that are already complicated.

And besides, it’s her opinion, not mine. I just felt insulted because of the tone she used. Hahaha, I don’t know. I’m too sensitive to handle things lately. My baad!!!

Bored to death.

Pops advised me to backup first the unit before i install anything.

In backuping, there are requirements:

• usb, another drive, or blankc dvds

the usb and another drive must be formatted first before they can backup anything. the thing is, i dont have a usb and my external hard drive’s enclosure’s broken. so i have to buy blank dvds for the backup.

to sum it up, the only thing im doing in my toppy is surfing the net. it brings me pain and boredom at the same time. )

btw, this is the first time im going to backup a unit so i dont know if it’s going to be successful.